The stress is starting to hit me...

Abba, please help keep all of us calm and to get everything done that we need to and please help my transfer go through.

I'm starting to panic. I have a little over 8 weeks to get everything ready to go. Because my hours are so screwy and Andy has been working so darn much, it comes down to we really only have my 2 days off a week to get everything ready and packed. That's only 16 days to get all of our stuff weeded out and packed away. We've been trying to do a little bit each night, but it's hard since there's not much time after dinner and between getting D down for the night and still trying to spend the time with her that she needs.

I told Corey on Monday that I was leaving. I thought he was going to be mad at me for the fact that he's been fighting so hard to get me the promotion. But, he told me that he'd still fight for me to get the position since I'd be leaving just as the other girl was coming in and that I deserved the job. He doesn't know what he's going to do without me and he's been full of praise lately for me on the days that I work with him. I told Kathy and I thought she was going to cry. We really have become like a family up there. Me...I've already been teary-eyed about leaving, but panicy about my new store...what if my new supervisor is really lazy or a prick or not as easy to get along with as Corey? What if everyone doesn't like me or I don't fit in very well? Do they have an outside garden register down there that I have to stand outside in in the 100 degree heat? I'm going to have to get used to a whole new layout of a store and all new people. I know in the end things will be fine...I'm just nervous. Corey told me that I'll be loved just as much there as I'm loved here and that I better leave them my cell phone number so they can check on me. Kathy said they'll be calling me at my new store as well to check on me. I think I'm going to have to transfer as a part-time associate too, which makes me a bit nervous since Andy doesn't have a job as of yet down there. Thank God for our emergency fund and our tax return money!

I've started to make the arrangements though little by little with renting the u-haul and the car tower thing. I just never realized how expensive it is to move across country. I found out the prices for a one-way airplane ticket from Dallas to Midway and from Dallas to Detroit to see where it would be easier to fly in. Andy's going to have to come get me at Midway as it's about 90 dollars cheaper to fly into there. Once we figure out our budget for this week, we'll be buying my ticket. I also want wills printed up in the event that anything happens to us during this whole thing. I just want to know that Deidra is taken care of.

I've been a bundle of emotions this week though. There's not enough time to do everything in. :-(