Feeling sad...but motivated...

Abba, You bring peace to me in this whole situation when I really look at the fact that I can't make this happen and I have to trust in Your Perfect Timing. Help lift my spirits and help us be able to keep moving forward towards our goals.

After my car was broken into, we cleaned out the garage so we could get my car inside. Andy wanted to throw out all of our old baby stuff...the crib, the high chair, the baby swing, the bouncy seat, and the activity center seat. It's all sitting outside for the garbage man to come (well, some people have already stopped and picked some stuff up that they apparently wanted). He said he was tired of playing "what ifs" and we don't have the room and he just wanted it gone. I took that to mean that he didn't want to do the adoption now. He told me that he still wanted to do it, but he said that when the baby comes home or if by chance we ever do get pregnant again, that we'd go out and buy the stuff again. It's just hard to let that stuff go....

However, I am letting it motivate me to get my newest fundraisers set up to get to that next stage of actually being able to start the process to bring our baby girl home.