A Call to Adoption?

Hi Abba. You know how our emotions have been with trying to conceive and all the heartache that we've been through....you understand the hurt of trying to no avail...the "helpful" words that people try to give that only hurt worse...the longing that I feel to hold another baby of my own....the longing that Andy and I feel to add to our current family...and the wants of Deidra to have a baby brother and a baby sister. I starting really thinking about adoption last year when I wasn't sure of how much more I could truly take of looking at other people's pregnant tummies and seeing what others could have so easily while we were struggling so hard. I know the true blessing that a baby really is and that children aren't just given to anyone, but yet I wonder sometimes why some people have it so easy and some so have it so hard. I'm extremely greatful that you gave us our little girl and I don't know what I would honestly do without her. I know some people in life aren't that lucky to even have one child, but I know that regardless of whether you're trying for one, two, our your fifth that it's hard when it's not happening for you although that degree of pain is different.

I've started to wonder lately if we should just call it quits, yet I can't honestly make myself let go quite yet. We want to go meet with an ob-gyn or a reproductive endocrinologist to see what our chances even are of having another one, yet I really feel deep down that Deidra is our first and our last that we'll have naturally and I've started to think about adoption now and then. I'm starting to wonder though if it's not a calling from you. I thought about it some last year and then I kind of let it go. I've thought about it a little bit more this year and Andy and I have talked about it a little bit. We know that we have to get some things together before we begin that process though. Deidra has been asking me more and more...almost on a daily basis...for a baby brother and a baby sister. It gets harder and harder to answer her and I keep telling her that we need to keep talking to you about it.

Well, this morning she put a catalog into my hands Lord and told me that she wanted a baby brother and sister...I didn't really look at the catalog until we sat down to eat and then I realized it was a whole catalog about nothing but adoption. I read the catalog and looked at the pictures and I felt your presence and I got all choked up over those babies. So much, so that I came downstairs and got on Bethany Christian Services website and started doing more research. I got choked up again and yet my heart has melted over some of these little babies. I even let myself write a couple of emails to the agencies about them. I figure if it's a calling from You that if something is meant to be, that You'll find a way to make it happen. In the meantime, I'm going to continue to pray about what Your calling us to do and I'll pray that you will help us add to our family whether it will be naturally or through adoption. In the meantime, I just want you to know how grateful we are for our little Deidra and we thank you for her so much.

These babies melted my heart today, Lord, and I pray that you will bless them.
Little Maria.... http://precious.org/child-page.cfm?Counter=15809

Alexander... http://precious.org/child-page.cfm?Counter=15865

Victor Benjamin... http://precious.org/child-page.cfm?Counter=15873

and Baby 454.... http://precious.org/child-page.cfm?Counter=15716

Bless the babies, Abba, that need forever families....