Monday, February 21, 2005

School and Stay At Home Mom...

Hi Abba. Ever since I quit that medical transcription program, I've wished that I hadn't quit. I don't mind my work at Home Depot, but I feel more and more like I'm not being the kind of mother that I should be. I only get one chance to do this right, I don't get to repeat any of this time again. I don't get to spend a whole lot of time with Deidra as I'd like to as my hours at work are so crazy. I feel so drained lately. I know that Deidra likes being around the other kids, but I really feel that my place belongs in the home. I need to be here for her so that I know what is going on with her and that she's being taught the values and morals that we want her to be taught. If I start the medical transcription program now, I can have it completed in a year to 18 months. All I'm waiting on is to see if my financing is approved...I need your help with this one Abba. I know our credit isn't good. But, I really want to be home with my Deidra again and I know I need an opportunity to work from home to do that. I also don't want to have to worry about how she's going to get back and forth to school when she starts kindergarten. And if I stay at Home Depot, I'm going to be worrying about that as my availability has to stay open from 6am to 10pm. I really want to put her in that charter school, Abba, and I need to be able to bring her back and forth and I really want to be able to be her class mom or put my volunteer time in so that she can go there.

Medicine has always interested me and held my fascination. I have the opportunity to do this schooling with a friend from work as well so we can be each other's study buddies. Please help the financing go through for both her and I. I desperately want to do this. I want to be a stay-at-home mom again and be the kind of mom again that You want me to be. Thank You, Abba, for Your help as I know that anything is possible through You.