I think I figured out some things...

I told Andy that I think I finally figured out some things that I need to do for me. I told him that I'm really beginning to resent therapy. The girls have 2 hours of speech therapy every Monday and Tuesday in the morning. All the kids (minus Deidra) have occupational therapy every Monday for 3 hours. The problem that I keep running into is that I have to change my plans because they cancel at the last minute or they want to change days. Granted, I'm guilty sometimes too of needing to change the days. But, it makes it hard to plan a week when they do this as then they have therapy on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. The girls visits are on Thursdays and then they go to Mother's Day Out on Fridays. I told Andy that it's hard to have a social life when things keep getting mixed up. I told him that I was going to talk to the caseworker and tell her that I was going to have a schedule and if for some reason they couldn't do therapy on those days, I'm going to see if we can just say ok and now we're going to wait for next week. I love these kids and want what is best for them, but I can't give up my life and not have a social life because of their therapy anymore...I need a chance to get out once in awhile and communicate with other adults. She's coming out tomorrow so I'm going to see what she says. I'm hoping that she'll be ok with it though. I also think I'm going to get back with playgroup and try to meet some people. I get so nervous around people that I don't know very well, but I keep telling myself...I can't meet people and make new friends if I don't put myself out there. I just hope I can actually talk and it doesn't turn into me having to chase the kids around and out of stuff left and right like I do here at home.

Our first play group outing

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We joined this playgroup a couple weeks back. We went to our first outing today to feed the ducks at the park. I'm very shy around people I don't know all that well, so I really had to push myself to get out there and go. I'm so glad that I did. Everyone is so friendly and nice and Deidra really like having other kids to play with. A lot of the mom's are new to the area as well, so it's nice that we're all getting to know the area together as well. It's always nice to have someone to do something with. So, I definitely am thankful that we found this group. Thanks Tiffany! It's something that will be good for us. It also forces me to get out and learn the roads and surrounding areas as well so that is doubly good for me.

Playgroup

Well, I joined a playgroup down here that just pretty much started a couple of weeks ago. A lot of people are new to the area from other states. I'm pretty excited to meet other people and they're great about scheduling weekly activities not only for us moms and the kids, but they plan mommy nights out too so we can get out by ourselves. I think it will be good for me, although I'm definitely out of my comfort zone since I'm so shy around people I don't know all that well or whom I have never met before. We're going to our first outing tomorrow (feeding the ducks at the park).