Giving back...

Well, this past couple of days I have been thinking about some things. Andy's been really into playing frisbee golf and playing with his co-workers and such. I was handling it ok until he started wanting to go more and more. He's been gone more Saturdays than he's been home in the past month and I found myself getting resentful because I'm always home with the kids. Granted, a couple Saturdays he had to work and it was out of his hands, but I was just tired and burned out and he wanted to go out and play. I think part of me getting upset is due to the fact that he has people to hang out with and I don't and I don't like having to be home with the kids without a break while he's gone all the time. I want to meet other people, but with the kids it's hard sometimes and my shyness majorly gets in the way. I don't know what I can do to meet people and I started hearing little whispers "go volunteer." I wondered if there were any places to go volunteer in any soup kitchens to feed the homeless or something. I found a meetup group that does random acts of kindness and they volunteer at the Salvation Army in Dallas once or twice a month feeding the homeless and they do other things throughout the Dallas community as well. I joined. I thought maybe my Mom may want to go with me sometimes and once Deidra gets a bit older she can come with me too if she wants. She has to be 10 first. But, this will give me a chance to go do something to give back and hopefully meet some people along the way as well. And it gets me out so I'm not just dealing with kids day in and day out.

Time to make some friends and do some stuff for me and others...

Andy has really been getting into frisbee golf lately and he's been playing with his co-workers. They're talking about starting up a team and playing frequently. I got rather resentful about it and I know I'm in the wrong. I told him to go and play and not to worry about me. Just because I don't really know anyone down here doesn't give me the right to hold him back because I want his company when he's not working. I've been thinking about it and Andy told me if I wanted to go out a couple nights a week or something that he'd be glad to watch the kids so I can have a break. I have such a hard time with me being so shy with making friends. He asked me why I didn't ask another fosterparent out for coffee or something. I don't know who to ask...

But, I also had the thought of getting involved in some volunteer work...maybe volunteering at a homeless shelter to feed the homeless or something. I feel a pull in this direction and it would be a way to serve God at the same time. So, I may look into doing something like this one or two Saturdays a month. I'm going to keep praying about it and see where God leads me...I know He'll open the door if I take the steps forward.