Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Hard day...
They're talking about moving Little A next week to a friend of Mom's. She's excited about going. They're talking about moving her brother, Baby L, to Dad's if everything works out there. If not, he'll be moved a little bit later to be with Little A at the friend of Mom's. We're just now getting used to one another and a schedule down and we got the therapy in place and I'm sad about the news. Although, I've known it was a possibility for a little bit now, so it's not a huge shock. I'm going to miss them though. I'll just have to enjoy the rest of the time that I have with them.
We go to court for Baby J in October as well and I still don't know what the plan is for him. We'd love to be able to adopt him...he fits in with us so well and we just love him to pieces. But, I keep praying about it and putting it in God's hands...He is the one that knows what is truly best for Baby J. It's hard not knowing though.
Lord, I pray for Little A, Baby L, and Baby J for their safety and that You will always have Your Hand in their lives and you know my worries and wants for them all and I put it all into Your Hands...You are the one who knows what is truly best for all of them.
Labels: Baby J, Baby L, foster care, Little A
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Monday, July 21, 2008
I'm so proud of the girls...
I don't know why I didn't start doing this sooner...both of them were starting to get attitudes that they were just obligated to get their allowances no matter what. Well, with Little A I have go give it to her as it's a foster care rule, but I figure that she doesn't have to necessarily know that.
We set all the kids (well, except for Baby L) up with a chore chart. They have a chore for each year that they are old. So Baby J has 2 (putting the shoes in the closet and picking up his toys) and the girls each have 7. They each have to make their beds and clean up their own messes in their room and putting away their own clothes. Then each week they're going to alternate which bathroom they're in charge of cleaning and maintaining (this week Deidra is doing the guest bathroom and Little A is doing the kid's bathroom and next week they'll flip flop) and Little A is sweeping the kitchen floor, taking the trash out, and getting the mail. Deidra is vacumming the downstairs (play and living room), dusting, and doing the cat boxes. If they tell me they're bored, they get an extra chore to do. Like yesterday they both complained that there wasn't anything to do and so they each got Lysol wipes and one went upstairs and the other went downstairs and they had to wipe all the doorknobs off. They're loving getting to check off their chore charts for jobs done and at the end of the week they'll get their allowance. I just hope that they both keep up their good attitudes about it. They've been awesome and it's nice to have the extra help around the house and they're learning some responsibility too.
Labels: Baby J, Deidra, household duties, Little A
Poor Deidra...
My little girl has inherited my small mouth.
I took her to the dentist last week for a check-up and the dentist was concerned about crowding and sent us to see the orthodontist. We saw the orthodontist and he said that her permanent teeth that are waiting to come in have already turned to try to come down into the open space, but they're still so big that they really don't have room to come down. So, she has to have two permanent teeth that she already has in pulled to make room for the 2 that need to come down. She goes in next week Wednesday. I had to have several teeth pulled when I was younger from the same problem, so when I told her that she is quick to blame me now. She's scared to death...I keep trying to tell her that the dentist will be gentle, but at the same time with my far of dentists now I'm nervous for her too.
Labels: Deidra, dental stuff
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Little A's 7th Birthday
We picked the girls up from Montessori a little early on Wednesday (the day of Little A's 7th birthday) and Little A was so excited about her birthday. She greeted me with a hug and we went to Chuck E. Cheese. We ordered pizza, breadsticks, and the salad bar, but she was too excited to eat much. So, we ate and then played games and we got lots of tickets. The kids all had a blast. We came home and she opened her presents and she was actually quite happy with what we got her (Littlest Pet Shop house and 2 kits with additional animals) and then we had her close her eyes while we brought her cake out. She was like "how did you know that this was totally the cake that I wanted?" I told her that I knew that Hannah Montana was her thing and she had told me awhile back that she wanted that cake and so that's the one that I ordered. She was absolutely psyched! So, we had some cake together and then got the kids ready for bed as it was already way past their bedtime. The girls played a bit before bed and then they went to sleep. When I tucked her in she was extremely grateful for all that we did for her birthday and it was nice to see that she had a change of tune. She even apologized all on her own for the way that she had talked to me earlier in the day and I thanked her for that.
Thursday, she went to her visit and her Mom had brought her the same cake and she got a bunch of Hannah Montana music toys and a game and a couple new outfits. She had a good visit that day and she was very happy. I was glad that her Mom was out of the hospital so that she could celebrate her birthday with her. I knew Little A would have been very disappointed if they missed another visit because Mom was in the hospital. So, I was happy for her. Her Mom was happy that she had had a good birthday.
Labels: birthdays, foster care, Little A
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Visiting Mother
I used a Mother's Day kit from Scrapbook Flair for this one. Faces blurred for privacy.
Labels: Baby J, hobbies, scrapbooking
Friday, July 18, 2008
A Higher Calling
I used the A New Day kit from Scrapbook Flair for this one.
Labels: faith, family, religion, scrapbooking
Questions...
Ten Years Ago: July 1998.
Andy proposed on the 4th of July and so we were newly engaged and planning a wedding just a couple months away (we married on September 12, 1998...and no I wasn't pregnant...we just didn't want a long engagement).
Five Things on Today’s To-Do List:
laundry
cleaning the bathrooms (we have 2.5)
cleaning off my desk
vegging
watching the kids
Snacks I enjoy:
SF popsicles
fruit
ice cream
popcorn
Things I would do if I were a Millionaire:
pay off our remaining debt
build up a 6 month emergency fund
college fund for Deidra
put money away for retirement
travel
give some to charity
give some to family and friends that needed some help
Places I have lived:
Grand Rapids, MI
Dutton, MI
Wayland, MI
Jenison, MI
Chicago, IL
Hanover Park, IL
Lowell, MI
Waxahachie, TX
People I want to tag:
anyone who wants to answer
Labels: quizes
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Little stinker is too funny!
Thanks. Baby J is so cute. He came downstairs from his nap and saw Little A's presents on the table and he said "my birthday?" I told him that he just had his and that it was Little A's birthday. I put him in his high chair to eat his lunch before speech and he just kept eyeing those presents. Before I let him down, he kept yelling "open, open." So, I knew we had to go put the presents up out of reach so he couldn't get into them. He walks into the pantry when I let him down to go see where I put them and he comes back to the kitchen looks at me and says "Mommy, I love you more." We play that game all the time "I love you, Mommy." "I love you more, J." and we go back and forth. So, it was so cute to see him trying to win me over. I giggled over that one. But, I told him that it was Little A's birthday and that those were for her and he says "awww". He's getting too smart, but it's hysterical. Stinker!
Awwww!
Baby J just had speech therapy today and the speech therapist told me that I was her favorite house to come to. She said there's just something about coming here that makes her whole day That in turn totally made my day! Anyway, she said that she's going to have her supervisor come out and retest Baby J as she doesn't think he needs speech anymore as he's talking so much now. WTG Baby J! I'm so proud of him!
I'm so tired, oh, I'm so tired!
Can you hear me singing? I'm so tired, oh, I'm so tired! Anyone else want to join the tired train with me?
Andy got home last night around 10 and we went to bed around 11. I was up at 12:30 feeling like I was going to throw up. I was up all night long about every 2 hours thinking that I was going to be sick. Finally I came downstairs and turned the air conditioner down to make it a bit colder (sometimes that helps me) and I laid on the couch. Andy's alarm went off multiple times and he woke up the baby. Andy came downstairs and I just snapped at him. When I even asked him to go up and feed the baby before he left I got an attitude back. So, I just went up and fed him and put him back down to bed and Andy left to go to work. I went and laid down and I tossed and turned for awhile and I knew I shoul dhave just stayed up as Baby J was going to be up soon, but I managed to fall asleep for a few minutes until he was calling me and kicking his door. So, now I'm up and I feel even more exhausted than what I did when I was up with the baby. Still feel like I'm going to throw up at any minute, but I can't do it.
I have Little A's birthday to get ready for today as well as getting through speech therapy with Baby J and then I have laundry to do as Little A just informed me that she's out of clothes to wear again. We're taking Little A to Chuck E Cheese tonight for her birthday so I'm hoping I will feel better as the day goes on.
Labels: Andy, Baby J, Baby L, Little A, the sickies
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Calgon take me away!
Andy's working late tonight (rather he went with another co-worker to another co-worker's house to fix her computer) and I'm dealing with a 2-year old who has been testing me all day long and the girls keep arguing over every stupid thing. Little A's birthday is tomorrow and she is practically rubbing it in Deidra's face. Deidra asked to go down to the neighbor's for some time out so I gave her an hour to play down there. Now it looks like some storms are blowing in and I'm wondering if I should go down and get her a few minutes early. We had a bunch of ebay auctions end and I'm trying to invoice everyone. We ran a summer clearance sale and Andy put all of our store items on auction to try to clear out some stuff and I literally have about 50 people to invoice. I'm cramping and cramping and my PMS is just horrible and all these little things are just making it worse. I think once I get the kids in bed I am going to run a hot bath and relax in the bubbles for awhile. I'm on the verge of tears and I feel so stupid because of it. I'm not normally like this...I blame it all on PMS. lol.
Just 40 more minutes and then it's bath and bed time. Then once I get them down, I just have to feed Baby L some cereal and a small bottle of formula and give him a bath and he'll be ready to go down for the night too. I can do it!
Labels: Andy's work, Baby J, Baby L, Deidra, Little A, vents
Monday, July 14, 2008
Baby J at 21 Months Old
I used the Business Women plopper by Divas Playground for this one.
Labels: Baby J, hobbies, scrapbooking
Happy New Year
I used a Happy New Year kit off of Scrapbook Flair for this one.
Labels: Baby J, hobbies, scrapbooking
Our Weekend Away...
I spent Friday getting the laundry done and the house cleaned up so we didn't come back to a mess. Got our bags packed up and the kids all packed up and put them to bed so we could get up early Saturday and get them to the sitters.
Got up early Saturday morning and were out the door by 7:45. We had to drive Baby L the furthest to get to his sitters so we dropped him off first. Then, we drove back to our city to drop off Baby J and Little A and then we headed to my MOm's to drop off Deidra. We chatted there for a bit and then headed out. We went to the Taste of Dallas and parked at Andy's work. We had some mediterranean food for lunch (Andy had a falafel sandwich and I had a gyro and we shared some hummus)and we just walked around trying samples and looking at the booths. We walked by the petting zoo and stopped to see all the bunnies that they were putting into the pen, we walked around to see the llama when I happened to look up and see a lemur that they had tasseled to a cage so he couldn't run off, but he was walking all over the tops of the cages and the poles. He had a broken leg and so we went over to see him. I was surprised when we petted him that he was as soft as he was. He was so sweet and adorable. I told Andy that I wanted one for our anniversary. lol.
I'm really just teasing about that part, although he was cool. We headed back to Corgan (Andy's work)to use the bathroom and get some water before we headed to Ft. Worth.
We drove out to Ft. Worth and found our hotel. We stayed at the Marriott.
We drove around to find the places we were going and then we went and checked our car into the hotel parking garage and then went and got our room. Our room was really nice and the bed was so comfy. We went swimming at the pool (5th floor outdoors) and it was neat to be in the pool and still look up at the highrise buildings. We went back in to shower and get dressed for dinner. We decided that we were going to walk around for a bit so we went up to the Barnes & Noble to see if they had a certain magazine that Andy wanted and we went to the Chocolate Factory to buy some truffles and we walked a few blocks just to see what was around. We both really liked downtown Ft. Worth. It has a totally different feel than Dallas does. We went back to the hotel to get our car to go to dinner. We went to La Familia to enjoy an awesome Mexican dinner for 2. Dinner was very good and very filling. This is what the inside of the restaurant looks like:
Very good service and very good food!
Then, we drove around for a bit afterwards and then headed back to the hotel to rest for a bit before the musical started as we were going to the 8 o'clock show. I napped for awhile while Andy watched some tv and then we got up to get dressed up to go to Avenue Q. We tried calling Deidra to tell her good-night (she still gets apprehensive staying away from home sometimes), but she was at the neighbors across the street from Grandma's swimming with their little girl. So we walked to the performance hall.
We discovered that we had really awesome seats! We went to the bathroom and then went back to sit down in our Box. We watched the music pit practice and the people fill in. And then it was time for Avenue Q to begin.
The musical was funny, very adult oriented, but hilarious, and we had a great time! Andy grinned from ear-to-ear during the whole first half I think. At intermission we tried to call Deidra again, but she was still swimming and my Mom was just about to go over and get her from swimming. She told us we could call when the musical was over, but we didn't get done until almost 10:30 and I wasn't going to call that late. We went back to the hotel to drop the musical tickets and brochures off and then we went across the street to Chili's to have a couple drinks. I was starting to get tired after drink #1 and so we just had one more and then Andy got some food to go (how he could even think about eating again was beyond me as I was still so full from dinner) and we headed back to the hotel. I was out shortly later.
Sunday, I woke up at 7 (darned kids have gotten up around then so much that I don't even need an alarm anymore and I'm up)and I watched the news while I let Andy sleep in. 8:30 rolled around and I got him up so we could breakfast as I was starving by then. He got dressed and we went down to the Corner Bakery to get some breakfast, but the line was so long that we decided to go back to our room and call them for Room service instead since they delivered. So, we ate in our room while watching Housesitter on tv. Breakfast was delicious! After that we got our stuff together and we checked out of the hotel. We headed to the Ft. Worth Stockyards.
We saw a cattle drive and we shopped in the stores and we went and tasted wine. The wine combined with the 100 degree heat did me in and I started feeling off. So, we headed back to the car and decided to go to the mall in Arlington to walk around for a bit. We got some Starbucks (my mint mocha chip frappuccino) to try and cool down some and we went to Children's Place, Gymboree, and the Yankee Candle Company, and a few other stores, before we went to Q-Doba for lunch and then headed to my Mom's to get Deidra. She was just getting home from swimming again and so we got her dressed and Mom fed her some dinner before we took off. I called the lady who had Baby J and Little A and we were on our way to go get them. Shortly after we picked them up the rain hit...so we watched the storm while we drove out to get Baby L. We got back home and tried to get unpacked somewhat and got Little A and Baby J fed since they were the only ones who hadn't eaten dinner yet and then they all took baths and went to bed. I fell asleep on the couch and Andy woke me to go to bed.
It was great getting out by ourselves and having that time to connect without interruptions and just doing our own thing. We both agreed that we really needed this time together and the break from taking care of the kids and we're going to make it a goal to do it more often...maybe every 3-4 months or so. It really did us a lot of good and we had a great time! Yes, I do have 1 picture of us that Deidra took when we got home, but I'll add it later as I'm too lazy to go get the camera right now. :-)
Labels: Andy, Avenue Q, marriage, Taste of Dallas, weekend in Ft. Worth
Friday, July 11, 2008
You Can Tell I've Been Out of the Dating Scene For Awhile...
I went to the store last night to look for some things for our trip this weekend and to get diapers and stuff for the kids that they'll need at the sitters. I'm in the nightgown (wink) section and I noticed that this guy kept looking at me and so I kept moving to the other side of the rack. I picked out a few things and went to the dressing room (2 racks from where I was) and this guy saunters up to me and asks me if I want to go across the street to Applebee's and get a drink. I tell him I'm married and that's not something I do. He looks at me again and says "I've been watching you for a few minutes and just thought I'd ask." I totally didn't know what to do and finally blurted out, "thanks, but no thanks." I quickly ran up to the counter to get a dressing room. I came home and told Andy and he kept asking me if the guy was cute...I told him not really...not that it mattered anyway...that's not something I was going to go do. I'm a married girl and he didn't need to worry. I've never been a cheater and didn't plan to start now. I told Andy though that you can tell that I've been out of the whole dating scene anyway...not that I've dated many people anyway...there was one person before him...but I totally didn't know what to say to the guy and I was totally uncomfortable in the situation.
Labels: Andy, dating scene, marriage, vents
Darn cat...
One of our kitties has taken to pooping on the floor. She always does it by the window in the playroom. We finally figured out that she was doing it in the morning in between when Andy left for work and when I got up for the day. And if we leave for anything, she'll do it again. We were able to figure out who was doing it and now we have to contain her in our master bathroom during the night and if we leave. I hate having to do that to her, but I can't have her pooping all over the place. Wish I knew why she was doing it. The vets put her on antibiotics and other meds to try to get it to stop, and she'll do better for a couple of days and then it's right back to square one.
Labels: the kitties
Thursday, July 10, 2008
What Kind of Soda Are You?
You Are Dr. Pepper |
You're very unique and funky, yet you still have a bit of traditionalism to you. People who like you think they have great taste... and they usually do. Your best soda match: Root Beer Stay away from: 7 Up |
Labels: quizes
What Mixed Drink Are You?
You Are a Mai Tai |
You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away. |
Labels: quizes
What's Your Pizza Personality?
Cheese Pizza |
Traditional and comforting. You focus on living a quality life. You're not easily impressed with novelty. Yet, you easily impress others. |
Labels: quizes
What Year Do You Belong In?
You Belong in 1994 |
With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good! |
Labels: quizes
A Weekend To Ourselves Without the Kids...
Wow! I don't even remember the last time that we got a weekend totally to ourselves...it's been a long while.
Andy got tickets to Avenue Q and we decided to book our free hotel stay at the Marriott in Fort Worth that we won at our foster parents banquet and they're paying for dinner for 2 at a really nice Mexican restaurant for us too. I am so excited to get away. Grandma is watching Deidra and the others are going to 2 fosterparents houses. I so cannot wait! We're dropping the kids off at 8:30-9 on Saturday morning and then we're heading to Ft. Worth. We're not coming back to get the kids until Sunday evening. A weekend to ourselves to do whatever we want with no interruptions...sounds like pure bliss to me!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Stupid car troubles...
Our van keeps stalling, they replaced the O2 sensor thinking that would solve the problem. We thought it did and then yesterday it started stalling again. They're sending us to another dealership to have them look at it since they were the ones that told my Mom that they had a similar problem and it turned out to be the 02 sensor. Our van isn't throwing codes so they keep saying there's nothing we can do.
I have a caseworker that never gives me a time that she'll be here that is coming from a ways away that is supposedly coming this morning and I'm supposed to do therapy with the kids as well. My Mom just gave me a bunch of crap that it's a miracle Andy still has a job with how much he takes off of work to help me with crap. I told her that his boss doesn't care as long as he makes up the hours. He goes in at 3-4 every morning so it's not like he doesn't do his share of work and he also has the capabilities of working from home if he needs to which he does a lot. I'm about ready to burst into tears. Top it off too that I was going to bring it back to her dealership (where we bought it from) and she told me that now she thinks we'd be better off to take it to the Dodge dealership as they deal more with them than they do and since it's not throwing codes they had no idea what to do with it. So, we drove it out to Ennis and left it with them for the day. It's not a big deal, just that my Mom's dealership is a whole lot closer and we know everyone there. The Dodge dealership said there was a service notice out on them to clean the carborators and something else and hopefully that should solve the problem. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's finally fixed. I'm feeling a little better than what I was earlier today too.
How Romantic Are You?
To take the test go to http://www.chatterbean.com/romantic
My results:
You are midway between being a romantic and a realist. You can mellow and provide enough romantic sparks when needed. You know where to draw the line between sentiment and good judgment and have probably never been seriously lovesick. Your head may be in the clouds, but your feet are on the ground.
Labels: quizes
The Dr. Phil Test
Here's the link to the quiz, give it a shot:
http://www.shanemcdonald.com/laughs/l-dr-phils-test.html
My results:
Your total score is 36
Interpretation of Results
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.
Labels: quizes
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Ugh! Family!
So, we've been down in Texas for 2 years (May 1 was our year marker). FIL keeps saying he's going to come down and then he says it's too expensive to travel or he doesn't have the vacation days to take and moves the date. He just retired a couple weeks back from his main job and now he just works 15-20 hours at Home Depot. Well, he was saying that he was going to come down in September. After he said that we started toying with the idea of going up to MI for Christmas, but we didn't tell him that. Well, Andy's aunt just came back from Washington DC and now Andy's Dad said that since he's never been to DC he thinks he's going to go down there in September instead of coming down here. Well, he's never been to Texas either so that sort of hurt Andy. Now, he's saying that he'll come down here in November instead. I told Andy that as stingy as he is with money he's not going to make 2 trips like that just months apart. Andy said last night "well, we're not going back up to MI until he comes down here."
What is so darned hard about coming down to see us? UGH!
Monday, July 07, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Christmas Photo Shoot
I used a Christmas Around the World plopper from ALP for this one.
Labels: Baby J, hobbies, scrapbooking
Baby J at 19 Months Old
I used the All that Glitters plopper by Lauren Bavin for this one.
Labels: Baby J, hobbies, scrapbooking
Saturday, July 05, 2008
I was so nervous for nothing...
We got together with Matt (my ex's twin brother) and his family this weekend as well as Jennifer, another girl we went to high school with. Jennifer was already there when we got there and once we got there I immediately got over being nervous and felt right at home. Matt was still Matt and his wife, Andrea, was a total sweetheart. His kids were adorable and our kids had a ton of fun playing with them. We were going to picnic at the park but it was raining, so we spent the day at their apartment and then went to watch fireworks. The girls had to go to the bathroom so Andy missed seeing the fireworks while he was gone with the girls. Matt and I chatted for awhile since we both had kid duty while his wife and Jennifer walked around to find something to drink. After fireworks were over, we waited for Andy to get back with the girls and then decided we better head to our hotel to check in. We made plans with Matt to get together in the morning. We all went to sleep and got up around 9 this morning and headed to Whataburger for breakfast. I called Matt to let him know we were on our way and when we got there we discovered Jennifer had already left. I guess she got a call from her cousin at like 1 in the morning and decided she was going to head over there. So, we hung out and decided to take the kids to the park for a picnic. We chatted and chatted and chatted and I caught up with Matt's family and how they were all doing and I learned more about Andrea and how they all met and knew one another. After the picnic, we decided we better get headed for home and Andrea let us know we could all head back to their apartment so we could get the kids all ready for the ride home instead of trying to get them to the port-a-potties at the park. So, we went back to their apartment and changed the kids and had the girls go to the bathroom. Matt's kids came and gave me a hug and a kiss good-bye and they're talking about coming up to visit us in the next couple of weeks. Andrea gave me a hug and told me how it was nice to finally get to meet me after hearing all about me all this time (hopefully good things) and Matt gave me a hug and told me how nice it was to see me again and that they'd try to get up here to visit sometime around the end of the month. It was a lot of fun catching up and we all enjoyed ourselves. I don't think my ex is all that happily married from some stories that I heard, but hopefully it will get better for him as his kids get older (they have a little boy who just turned 3 and twins (b/g) that just turned 2. It was an interesting weekend, and I can't wait until we all get together again. I have to get pics from his wife as our camera battery died.
Labels: 4th of July, family, holidays, travel
Thursday, July 03, 2008
How Much Have I Changed in 10 Years?
You've Changed 36% in 10 Years |
Ah, the past! You may not remember it well - because you're still living in it. While you've changed some, you may want to update your wardrobe, music collection and circle of friends. |
Labels: quizes
How Much Life Have I Experienced?
You've Experienced 60% of Life |
You have a good deal of life experience, about as much as someone in their late 20s. You've seen and done enough to be quite wise, but you still have a lot of life to look forward to. |
Labels: quizes
What Type of Ex am I?
You Are A Jealous Ex |
You're not quite over your past, and you are hurt that your ex is moving on You're no longer in love, but you're not done with being pissed Jealous of any happiness that comes your ex's way, you still can't let go |
I'm not too sure about this one. Granted, I only really dated one other person seriously before my hubby and I got together, so I don't have a lot of relationships to really go on when I did this quiz. But, I was surprised to see that it said I was jealous as I really don't get that vibe from myself. Why? Well, it's been about 13 years since I dated my ex and we have recently just gotten back in touch with one another and Andy and I are going to visit his twin brother and his family this weekend to spend the 4th of them as well as with another girl that we were all in band together with. My ex's twin brother was the first to contact me and we chatted a few times back and forth and made plans to meet up. Then, my ex and I got in contact with one another and we've sent a few emails back and forth and I've seen pics of them with their families. Was it weird to see him married with 3 children? Yes. Was I jealous? Not really. Did it make me think back of our dating times by seeing pics of him? Yes. But, I wouldn't say that I was jealous. I've been thinking about him quite a bit and certain things that had happened when we were together and so forth and I've wondered if he's been doing the same, but it's not like I'm ever going to ask him that or make anything of it. It's been nice to see what he's been up to and hear about his family and how he met his wife and so forth and it gave me a chance to apologize for a couple things from our relationship...maybe it didn't really matter to him all this time, but I felt bad and it did me some good to have the chance to say it. He was my first kiss and I can still remember it...our band trip to Disney World the day after Christmas all the way to New Years day...we sat in the back of the bus together and I slept cuddled up in his arms. Granted, we had dated for about 3 months by then and we had never kissed. We had just held hands and we pulled in to the hotel and we went to get out and I leaned over and kissed him. We got out and I went to my room and I was hyperventilating...I could not catch my breath for anything. He never knew that though. lol. But, his kiss had that effect on me a lot that week. We dated a year, broke up, got together a couple weeks later, dated another year, I brought my cousin to his high school graduation party because I was running late and my aunt had begged me to let her do my hair and make-up and she did it way too dark and I totally didn't look like me but I didn't have the time to go and wash it off or anything...my ex seemed like he was a good sport about it at the time...a couple days later when I called him he told me he didn't think we should see each other anymore. Fast forward, to a year later I saw him at the college we went to for the first time and he was at the end of the hallway where I was walking and his eyes lit up and he gave me a great big smile, I smiled back, but I didn't stop. Come to find out later, he wanted to ask me out that day, but he never got the chance as I wouldn't stop. (I found out from going to a friend's house to pick her up to go on an outing we had...she had 2 guys over that I had never met before....they came inside and one of them told me that I looked familiar and asked me what school I went to. I told them that I didn't know who they were...my friend comes out of her room and says "oh, that's Mark's ex-girlfriend" and I was trying to figure out how they knew Mark when I they said that they all worked at the lumber store together and then I hear one say "you're his EX-girlfriend?" I told him that we had broken up awhile back. He said that he still showed everyone my picture and told them that I was his girlfriend. I played around with email at school one day and finally figured out his (it really wasn't hard to figure out then) and I emailed him to see if he was dating anyone and he wrote back and said that he wasn't and asked if I was. I had already been dating Andy for a couple of months by that point and so I told him about it and he asked when that happened and I never heard from him again until a couple of weeks ago. Well, actually I shouldn't say that as I think I did see him a couple times where I worked, but I never got the chance to talk to him as I was working. I think part of me wanted to stop and talk to him whem I ran into him at school, but he had already broke my heart twice and I just couldn't do it again.
I found it interesting when he told me how he met his wife and that they dated off and on for 7 years before they decided to get married. I realized that just must have been a pattern with him, but I guess I just don't work that way. They've been married for 4 years now and he looks happy and his kids are adorable and I wish the best for him. It's been nice to talk with him off and on over the past few weeks.
We leave tomorrow to go see his twin brother and his family and I'm a little nervous after all this time, but yet I'm looking forward to it too.
Labels: ex-boyfriends, quizes
How Lustful Am I?
I got this from Sarah at proudmomx2.blogspot.com
Your Lust Quotient: 23% |
You are a fairly lustful person, but nothing out of the norm. You usually keep your lust under control, but sometimes it gets the better of you. |
Labels: quizes
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Aloe Vera is my best friend right now...
We went to the water park on Monday and I got a pretty bad sunburn on my shoulders and chest. It literally kills to put my arms over my head to get dressed and to do my hair. And forget a bra...I'm only wearing one when I have to go out somewhere or I have someone coming over. Andy's been coating me in aloe vera gel and when he's not here I do my best to do it myself. Today when I was doing it, I noticed that parts of it have blistered. I never had a sunburn blister before so it kind of freaked me out. I called the doctor just to make sure I didn't need to do anything special to it and she just told me to make sure to use aloe vera gel and to make sure I load up on sunscreen next time I'm out in the sun. That's what I get for letting the kids rush me to go swimming...I got them all loaded up on sunscreen and just did my arms and legs and called it good. I knew better, but I didn't listen to that little voice saying "wait a second and get Andy to do your shoulders really good." Now, I know that I better listen when that little voice talks to me....or maybe I'm just going cuckoo. I'm off to take some more tylenol now that I just coated in aloe vera gel again. Owwww! This Texas sun will get ya...that's for sure.
Labels: things about Texas
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Guess I'm a week ahead of myself...
I was rushing around trying to get the kids fed and dressed so we could be up at our foster care agency for Little A and Baby L's initial service plans. I sent an email to my caseworker about something and she wrote me back asking if we had something scheduled or if I was just coming up to drop off paperwork. I went to look at my calendar again and realized that I was looking at next week Tuesday instead of today. Oops! I about gave my caseworker a heart attack because she thought she forgot to do their service plans. I told her that I was sorry and I'm so tired I guess I just jumped ahead on the calendar. Oh well, I can slow down and concentrate on all my lovely laundry and housework I have to do today.
Labels: Baby L, foster care, household duties, Little A